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Friday, May 31, 2019

Here Goes

After an embarrassing number of months in a row in which I absolutely swore I'd make the time and ride my own horse and get my shit together, I finally realized I couldn't keep making a mortgage payment a month to ride bareback for 20 minutes once every 30 days. 

It doesn't make any sense. 

But. 

Zoe is such a foundational part of my life that there's no way I'm letting her go. 

I did the reasonable adulty thing and reached out to a trainer I trust and set up a lease situation with a fancy legal agreement and everything

Not gonna lie, the day I put her on the trailer and watched her drive away was really shitty for me. I told myself it was a two week trial and it might go ok and it might not.

The idea of not paying $$$ to not ride was nice. 

The truth was that I didn't have time to ride if I had wanted to. 

And yeah when I got the text that she wasn't quite the right fit for the situation, I was definitely not sad she was coming home. 

So now she's back.

And now I'm definitely going to ride this time. 

Just you watch.
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8 comments:

  1. TeresaAJune 1, 2019 at 4:52 AM

    I read the first half and was like ‘nooooo’ and then I was ‘it’s none of your business so shut up. She gets to make her choices’ and then I was ‘yaaaay’.

    So quite the roller coaster.

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  2. MartidollJune 1, 2019 at 8:31 AM

    wow i am glad she is back and hope you can make things work. I wish you were closer. Remus (and I) would love to help you save money :)

    I was JUST thinking about you this am so glad you posted!! Glad she is back!

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  3. Cut-N-JumpJune 1, 2019 at 10:28 PM

    I can't even imagine. Hopefully you can find someone to do a lease or even a half lease at you barn. Then you still have her to ride and love on.

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  4. Exploring Dressage BiomechanicsJune 2, 2019 at 6:57 AM

    Give it a try and see what happens. You're different, she is a willing and happy horse, and you might have more fun than you think. If not go into plan B with ZB having more amateur miles. Enjoy!

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  5. Calm, Forward, StraightJune 2, 2019 at 7:11 PM

    Feeling your pain. Energy, time and money are finite resources. Paying a mortgage on a single income + owning a horse is rough. Wishing you the best of luck!

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  6. PiccoloponyJune 3, 2019 at 6:26 PM

    Hearing you on this right now. I’ve been struggling to spend as much time at the barn as I want. I’m still working on it but it’s an expensive hobby to not be doing anything with.

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    1. SprinklerBanditJune 6, 2019 at 7:11 AM

      Right. I don’t mind the money if I’m taking full advantage of it, but that’s not an easy thing to do.

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