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Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Seasons Change

Living the good life
I'm in this weird transitional period right now. Izzy is for sale and still with me, but I have Cuna, too. It's a unique experience in that I get to see exactly what I love about each of them. Cuna is so freaking adorable, but he's never going to be the conformational wonder that Izzy represents. The only "wonder" about Cuna's build, really, is how in the world it works for him. 

Who says he isn't photogenic?

And yet, every time I ride Cuna, I relax a little more. I didn't have any way to gauge just how uptight and uncomfortable I was before, because it had become my normal. I didn't realize how afraid I was because what I thought was a "usual" level of fear was so astronomically high that my actual "fear" point was just plain ridiculous. I'm not quite to the point of hopping on Cuna and wanting to go jump, but I'm getting there. I just have so far to go in relaxing with him and actually learning to trust him.

It's a big world out there

Trust is such a funny concept for me to process. I could always trust Izzy to be herself, but Cuna I can trust to take care of me. I never knew what that was like before. I started riding on an old schoolie who always took care of himself, rode one good mare before she passed away, and then a constant string of greenies. To be honest, I've never spent time on a "broke" horse before. I've always been training, teaching, moving things along.

Now I can finally relax. It's completely foreign to me, but I can trust Cuna and I know he trusts me. Even when he went completely batty on our adventurous trail ride the other day, I wasn't afraid.

He's certainly not what I would ever have picked out for myself (big red gelding, say what?) but I start and end each ride with a big, stupid grin on my face and I like it.


16 comments:

  1. Nothing like riding different horses to make you realize everyone's positive points.

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  2. I love your comment how you weren't afraid even when he was having his moment the other day... don't you love that?!

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  3. Riding broke horses - what a concept!! And remember that Cuna is so lucky to have you too! It sounds like he is really enjoying having a job again.

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  4. I think its great seeing how you are changing positively with Cuna. :)

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  5. Welcome to a much better club than cleaning the nether regions club! Glad I'm not the only one getting off a big red pony with a dorky grin on my face. I won't feel as guilty about gushing now...

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  6. "I start and end each ride with a big, stupid grin on my face and I like it."

    And THAT's what it's all about! : )

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  7. I think TB's are so expressive...and what can be better than a redhead?!

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  8. Hooray for this. I too am in a weird crossroads with my riding. I feel like I'm always going to be drawn to babies/greenies, but lately I found myself wanting to just work on myself and feel really comfortable riding again. Your journey is inspirational!

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  9. As a person who ALWAYS falls for the conformation un-wonder/weird horse no one would look twice at... It makes me happy to see how much things have progressed in such a short time with Cuna. It really is all about enjoying pony-time, regardless of what package that pony comes in :)

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  10. There is a saying, "Pretty is as pretty does." I think you're learning that one! Izzy is gorgeous, no doubt, but Cuna is doing some pretty beautiful things for your riding!

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  11. Just goes to show that conformation only means so much. If Cuna is jumping like he is after many years doing his job, that is proof that he is built wonderfully and a great attitude to match. Close the textbook!

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  12. Now you are beginning to understand Solo love -- you can take him anywhere, you can trust him, you know him inside and out (eventually), and no matter what, he always makes you smile. He will take you places you never even thought of.

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  13. I totally understand what you're saying about trust. I've also only ever owned greenies... Now I have a new horse, and I'm still trying to figure her out. I think she might be the type to take care of me. I guess we'll figure it out. :)

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  14. There are very special heart horses who always have a way of finding YOU. :) Enjoy Cuna and enjoy Izzy for who she is..someone else will connect with her on a different level. Win/Win.

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  15. The breed, sex and color of a horse I would never in a million years have picked for myself, turned out to be the one that taught me the most and took care of me like no other. Funny how we think such things make all the difference in the world, but in reality- they don't!

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  16. I'm so happy you found Cuna! He sounds so perfect for you and I'm happy he's making you happy!

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