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As part of my goal of being a viable competitor at first level next year, I am forcing myself to watch videos of me riding.
I try to ease the pressure a little by screen capping the good moments to remind myself that sometimes I look like I can sort of ride, but that's a double-edged sword too.
I mean, look! Me riding:
Like, yay go SB! Hands up! Shoulders back! Leg long! You're so amazing.
But then you also see this:
And yeah. WTF am I doing. Body tipped forward. Reins way too long. Seat bones digging in to horse. Hands useless.
And then if I want to get really picky, I'd show you the best screenshot off a jumping video that redheadlins kindly took for me last week.
|Base of support? WHO NEEDS ONE|
Right? Like. Not only does my dressage position not look fantastic, I have apparently completely forgotten how to release and my lower leg is... eh, let's be generous and call it "iffy".
This is really hard for me to accept. I'm a very balanced rider in general. I spent several years at a good jumping barn, and I'm used to having a relatively solid position, whatever else is going on. But now? Dressage uses literally the opposite muscles of everything that's good about jumping, so I'm completely re-learning what to do, while simultaneously trashing what I used to be good at.
There isn't even a comfort zone of like "at least I can do X", because right now, I apparently can't.
Oh, at let's not even talk about my position at the canter. There's no posting, so I ought be more stable and better, right?
All that to say. I'm not good at this. As an obsessive over-achiever, I'm PAINFULLY aware that I'm not good at this. I'm trying to look for bright spots. Here's one: this video is not great, but Courage is starting to look a little steadier in the contact, right?
I can also do this a little bit:
Here's Courage at a show this June in which we achieved perfectly respectable scores at training level:
|picture by Alyssa|
And here we are lately:
|blurry screen cap--more flattering moment version|
Soooo. I guess things are getting better. The video really is letting me watch things as they are and learn how to feel what shouldn't be. In case you were wondering, yes, my possessed right hand in back in full force, and no, that doesn't make my right lead canter transitions better.
First level never looked so far away.